2009 ended well
with watch night service, supper, countdown @ cashew heights,
and then came 2010 starting off with
car rides, darts, lousy jaychou flim, dimsum breakfast
with my church friends.

honestly, 2009 is one of the worst year i'm had.
a lot of emotions of sadness towards certain people.
a lot of pursuing of worldly desires
a lot of spiritual disconnection with God.
but of cuz there's happy things going on..
however more negative stuffs though
as my life is at a changing stage.

looking out at the window now,
it's daybreak. the sun is out already.
IT'S A NEW YEAR.

i've numbed myself throughout the whole eyar
till the end of the year, i started to face the facts.
i want to end everything in 2009
what happened in 2009 stays there...
like really end EVERYTHING.


bad habits, work attitudes, serving attittudes, and last but not least, you.

goodbye 2009.
goodbye livejournal.
i'm moving back to my old blogger account.

http://gabbylicious.blogspot.com/

watched sherlock homles yesterday
with enli, juin, von and enkai =)
great movie.. but there's part 2!
confirm plus chop stamp one lor
can't wait for 30th Jan to come
as we gather together finally.

can be something that made you happy the whole day
and it can be something that made you sad for a long period of time.

2 patients passed away in my ward today.

1 didn't managed to see her family members.
according to the Dr, she's getting better
but she desat to 77% on 100% O2 therapy.
when she passed away, her family members are not around.

2 was really lucky.
she had her family members around
she called for her family members at 330AM and talk to them
she hugged her son, daughter, husband before that goodbye during my shift.
she managed to say her last words and passed away peacefully.


i thank God that i haven't lost dearest people yet.
that's why i can't understand the feeling of losing a loved one.
that's probably why i don't feel a thing when comes to facing death

but i'm afraid. what if i can understand what's that rush of emotions is all about
and when my patients faced death. i still don't feel a thing.

a calling from God yet i'm uncertain of the purpose.
i thought it'll mold me, mold my character into a better person.
but it turned out the other way.
i'm more hot tempered, easily irritated, more and more task orientated.
can't go church on regular basis. can't attend church events at times.
can't have men tu, can't join alpha youth. can't go for regular cell group.
i hate it. seriously.

uncertain, but i know God is asking me to press on.
through many people lately.
probably. i just haven't gotten my huge impact at work
that will WOW me and give me a huge wake up knock on my head.
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Dearest Tic Tac (T.T)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! may the good Lord bless you abundantly =)
and when will you reveal urself to me??!? nway, i've got ur present! THANKS!!!
"A friend loves at all times.. because love never fails!"- Prov 17:17, 1 Cor 13:8

Love, Gabby



by the way, i've got a happy wave!
He waved. hahaha

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

carolling is really fun this year..
i'm in a very small group
and i thank God for that cuz i had a chance to fellowship with
people whom i seldom talked to.

really enjoyable night =)

1735 christmas lunch was a good too!
not the food, but the fellowship.
i'm really glad that my whole cell attended =)

but the best part of this christmas is
PLAY LAN!
omg it's quite fun!!
hiding and sniping away
shooting and killing hahaa.

it's much nicer to have so many people play (13 of us)
than 2 people play.. (me and my bro.)